I realise more and more I am out of the conventional life, on my own terms. Getting back to my senses, I feel a magnificent fort of solitude. Silently blinking and nodding with hardly any wrinkles on my forehead I feel like saying „fuck you” and „love you” at the same time. Not presenting myself as someone better yet representing a clear sign of independence, security and peacefulness.
I asked my abang how he was after a few months of not talking. He began with resentment, trapped in his cage of expectations. I feel a great level of compassion, I really do, yet I am not getting engaged, I am not getting into this trap.
And when I do, like I recently did with betting, I am mindfully figuring out how to get out of it. Level of my insensitivity to stimuli, not being scared by losing serious money is scary. But I don’t scare. Neither does Omar Devone Little. Just stay mindful. Find out what’s possible, choose the best option and trust the process. And still plan on how to win millions of ariary while maintaining best abs ever. YFPW.
During my lifting break I tested my strength. After pause bench pressing 3×105 yesterday I did 1×100 on the incline. I already „regret” compromising strength increase for the fat loss diet. But it’s ok lah, I will get it back in the second part of the year.
It is what it is. Right here, right now. Surrender to it. And it’s already all good. Simple as that. No need to complicate it.