What is the most unattractive male first name in the English language? Keith.
What is the most irrelevant word in the English language? Should.
I woke up early today but didn’t get up until 1pm when I had my daily audiocall with Mr Bolo (a qui). My legs and lower back are aching, mostly due to 2 soccer games in the last two days, partially also due to fever. I am feeling much better today though, thanks for asking.
We discussed the irrelevance of what should be rather than what is during our daily audiocall.
I used to feel uncomfortable not being busy. When other people were working and I was not, I felt I should be working. There was a void to fill. No wonder why I have been exercising daytime drinking quite frequently at some stages of my life 5-8 years ago.
And although this type of discomfort is still present in my life to some extent, the level of peace of mind related to this is significant. The key to this achievement lies in full acceptance of reality, full acceptance of my life circumstances.
Because of being where I am, not being constrained by much, I have a lot of freedom. In fact, my main job is to be wary of this freedom, defending from the dangers of its high levels. The demons that can be manifested by gambling, cocaine, girls, drinking, or usually combination of all, can be deadly. As a matter of fact it is not an easy job. It is much harder than applying postmarks to postage stamps in the post office. If you do it mindlessly, you will hit the rock bottom in a blink of an eye. In the latter, if you do it mindlessly, you will simply finish your shift, eat fish and chips, then drink two beers in front of your tv. As once upon time a wise man said, wolność to nie dowolność.
It is what it is. I am temporarily retired and I live how temporarily retired human being lives. I slowly brushed my teeth while listening to Grammatik – Czasem, dressed up and – still slowly – walked up to my local hawker centre where I am just having my third kopi o ko song. I don’t know if this is what it should be. I honestly don’t think it’s relevant. But it clearly is what it is. And it clearly feels relevant.
I am physically working way harder than an average human being. Lifting, playing football, hiking, turning down the volume on tv. Yet again, it’s not because I should be doing so. It is because I was exposed to sports when I was young and I am experientially aware of how much pleasure and well-being it may deliver. Simple as that. If it didn’t happen, I would read books, play schtupid computer games, do drugs or gossip about celebrities. Did you know that The Spice Girls had split? The black one has been eating too much chocolate.
Level of happiness is not decided by my circumstances. It is decided by how much in peace I am with them. Yes, there is a clear corelation between wealth and happiness but there is no clear causation between the two. In general, people driving porsche are happier than people using SMRT but only because it is easier to accept driving porsche rather than having to use SMRT. I currently don’t drive porsche. My ride is SMRT. And I am happy. Kopi o ko song helps.