Just to keep this diary up to speed I started my little self-retreat project 39 days ago. I observe myself, trying to indulge myself in high states of awareness and I use diet, weightlifting, reading and studying among other activities as my objects of meditation.
Yesterday I decided my video reports are no good. This is why I am writing this now. I felt writing will be better way of building my self-awareness than making vlogs. But maybe, just maybe, it’s more of a language problem rather than form of expression. So I will try to make a few text reports in English, maybe up to Day 50, and I will re-assess the situation. The key factors are how freely and orderly I can express myself, how well I can lure potentially interested human beings into a conversation and how likely I am to inspire others. Practicing a foreign language is surely a factor, too. But as surely not a key one. It is possible that I started making vlogs in English, then yesterday switched to blogging in English just to write in Polish only to eventually end up vlogging in Polish by the end of the project.
By no means are dilemmas like that the problem. Priority of self-awareness in order to live peaceful, happy and balanced life effortlessly is rock-solid. The tools to make sure this is happening are another story. I am in a constant lookout for better methods. Trying out new things and learning from such experiences and being fully aware of this process sounds like a good plan to me.
Ciągle w poszukiwaniu lepszych metod, wiesz?