Traditional religion and love are the stories which if you analyse them closely enough or (unfortunately) experience them deeply enough, you will realise they are lies. It is not a matter of opinion it is just a matter of looking more closely. In my opinion. And experience.
However, it is even more clearly not a judgment, just a fact, that if you experience them deeply enough you will feel blissful. Feeling of oneness with the universe, let alone with one person brings you the sense of meaning in life. Aw.
I used to question whether it is wise to delude yourself and believe in religion or love to experience such blissful moments. Though now I think it is an incorrect question. You don’t choose what you believe in or what you don’t believe in. It’s like watching a game in which your favourite team lost and ask yourself philosophically whether it is better to maybe believe that your team won. I thought about putting here some Arsenal joke but I’ll let myself leave that for another occasion. The point is you know your team lost and you don’t even think about your beliefs. Case closed. They’ll finish fourth anyway.
The right question, I believe, is whether you have to give up these blissful moments since you know they were grounded on delusive stories. And the right answer, I believe, is no.
Full surrender to the truth, as directly experienced is what I wanted to consider a replacement for religion. But then I changed my mind – it’s actually upgrade of religion. What makes it better than religion is sustainability. You don’t have to believe anything on insufficient evidence, you don’t have to delude yourself, lie to yourself. Full peace of mind comes with acceptance of truth, the moment right here right now is exactly what it is, not less, not more than that. Accepting your conditioning is not only liberating but it also is the best step forward. The better you know the truth the more clarity you have to respond to it moving forward.
I have recently been trying to think of full acceptance of truth and search of optimal life performance as higher power. I can no longer believe there is after-life and that eating bread is better than eating shrimps. But it is self-evident that my life is better when I squat, meditate, eat and sleep right, have meaningful conversations and read books than when I lack the above. This is my higher power and I believe (without my free will!) this is the right thing to do. Am I being religious or ridiculous? I hope not.
Similarly, I’ve had glimpses of upgraded love. It happens when you crave for the other person both physically and mentally and you are both aware of this craving. Full awareness of what it is and what it is not changes the game here and makes it more sustainable. It seems like a paradox but it’s true. Awareness of relationships being unsustainable makes them more sustainable. Forever together lah!
I definitely crave for more of these glimpses. Yet I am aware of those cravings.
Can you fuck me already?
How much do I have to fuck with wood? I’m no dendrophiler.